f ourteen ye ars th irty min utes 15 s econds I 've h eld this gr udge
e leven so ngs 4 full jo urnals thoughts of p unishme nt I 've expen ded
n ot in cont act no t a lett er such c ommunica tion telepathic
y ou've be en vi lified u sed as fodder you de serve a pie ce of eve ry record
but wh o's it hurting no w?
W ho's the one that's stu ck?
W ho's it torturing no w
with an antique kn ot in her stomach
I want to be bi g and let g o of
this gru dge that's grown ol d
All this ti me i've not kno wn how to re st this bygo ne
I want to be so ft and resol ved
clean of slat e and re leased
I want to forg ive for the bo th of u s
L ike an aba ndoned house d usty-cove red furn iture still inta ct
I f I visi t it now do I simply re-live it s omehow grat uitous
B ut who's s till a ching no w? Who's tired of her own voice?
W ho's it weigh ing down with no gift from t ime of said healing
I want to be bi g and let g o of
this gru dge that's grown ol d
All this ti me i've not kno wn how to re st this bygo ne
I want to be so ft and resol ved
clean of slat e and re leased
I want to forg ive for the bo th of u s
Maybe as i cut the cor d ve ils will lift from my eyes
Maybe as i lay this to re st dead
w eight off my shoulders will rise
H ere i sit much d etermine d ever il l-equipp ed to draw this curtain
H ow this has e ntertain ed validated and has served me greatly e ver the victim
B ut who's d one wh ining no w? Who's ready to put down
T his load I've carried longer than I had c ared to rem ember
I want to be bi g and let g o of
this gru dge that's grown ol d
All this ti me i've not kno wn how to re st this bygo ne
I want to be so ft and resol ved
clean of slat e and re leased
I want to forg ive for the bo th of u s
